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>> Tuesday, January 8, 2008

"Did you ever wonder if the person in the puddle is real, and
you're just a reflection of him?"


Some days I am surrounded by such a feeling of hopelessness that it begins to eat me up.
You can’t comprehend what you want from life. I feel I am drowning in my self created mess.
When you begin to go with the flow only to be stuck in a whirlpool and are sucked deep into it. And the mask of smiles seems too heavy to wear. I feel so helpless over certain issues, issues which have no closure.
Appalled by the deceit around me, often wondering why some people just have that power over me. Where people just use me when it’s needed and then in a fraction of a second, I am a complete stranger.
Sometimes I wonder why god made me so human, it would have been so wonderful not to feel at all.

Before my friends begin to panic, I assure you its just one of those days. As I weigh my blessings, these concerns just melt away. But still sometimes my heart rules over my head and I go back to thinking if only things had turned out to be different….

16 comments:

pooja January 8, 2008 at 4:30 PM  

"Where people just use me when it’s needed and then in a fraction of a second, I am a complete stranger"

very true.

Rakesh Menon January 8, 2008 at 8:28 PM  

very true... but then thats life i guess!
so just chill, think of the good moments that have given you hope and do what you feel is right... :)

Awanish January 9, 2008 at 2:07 PM  

take it easy girl..it isnt as bad as u see it to be at times...life always has beautiful things to offer..keep walking as JW says...njoy ur stay on earth :)

Nishanth January 9, 2008 at 6:08 PM  

""When you are in light, everything will follow you..

But when you enter dark, even your shadow will not follow you.""

Seriously. This is the philosophy around which life revolves. In case you think that people have used you when needed and then disposed of you, learn to accept it. This is the horrible truth of life and we have to accept it.

And in case we think of it, there is a little bit of " use and throw" attitude in all of us.

So forget the future and walk the present. And life is too short anyways to sit and think of all the shit we have done in life and all the shit that people are throwing at us.

Live life king size dear.....

rohit(monu) January 21, 2008 at 10:41 AM  

"life is always the reflection of our perceptions".....
we may perceive this world to be cruel & cunning, but at every stage, there is a warm -heart waiting to receive us..watever we give is never more than wat God has given us, & He never complains!!so as long as the capacity to give exists, lets do it with a smile & without the conjecture of return..Be patient, theres always light at the end of life's thankless dark tunnel....

silverine January 22, 2008 at 11:23 AM  

The trick is to not let this minority of people get to you. But the fact is that their actions are so devastating that you end up feeling the way you have expressed in the post. But look around, there are far too many people who will not take advantage of you than who will...at least here in the South!. No offense meant to anyone by that last line :) And since we are all taking our first baby steps in adult life, these are lessons that will prepare us for road ahead. So cheer up! :)

Deepti January 22, 2008 at 12:32 PM  

Hey thanks everyone for the support ...
@silverine: I had a broad smile when i saw your comment anjali... do keep dropping in here when you find time :)

Ravana January 24, 2008 at 10:05 PM  

ah!!! that familiar feeling;-))))) if you read the Mahabharata, you will get the answer.

Ravana January 25, 2008 at 10:03 PM  

ramayana is already well-marketed, in my blog...just read that post!!!! mahabharata suits your post better as it deals with realpolitik!!!

as for Sachin, well, history will prove me right...

Solitaire January 30, 2008 at 3:49 AM  

This was the kind of day I had yesterday..just yesterday.

:: Clouds :: January 30, 2008 at 5:01 PM  

Wow! I'm like feeling the same at this moment.
All bogged down, wondering what exactly made the giant wheel of life take such a devious turn...

:)

mayz January 31, 2008 at 3:14 PM  

ah!!!
those unexpected twists n turns...d moments of warmth suddenly being drowned in hopelesness...things seizing to make sense...but then its a cycle...beautiful moments r to b cherished n sad ones to b learnt from...n there is more light in life than darkness...god loves us!!!

Alameen February 2, 2008 at 1:38 AM  

i strongly believe that my happiness depends on my action. never get the feeling that someone made me sad.. just my thoughts..

j February 4, 2008 at 1:18 PM  

“I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity.”

Well girl welcome to the world sometimes u wonder what is worse...but rest assured keep that human element intact it will take u places......

the mad momma February 8, 2008 at 11:10 AM  

tagged!

nishant chandgotia February 12, 2008 at 1:12 PM  

When I read this I feel as if I have gone thorugh the same emotions once...thats all I can tell you...